Second Life

Wow!

I just recently discovered Second Life and it has breathed new life into my feminization fantasies!  It is an awesome place to go play in.  It's a "MMOW" - Massively Multiplayer Online World.  It's not a game like Everquest with a set script and objective.  Instead, you create your account - your avatar - and then you log into the simulation.

Once there you interact freely with the other folks online.  You have a choice when creating yourself to be male or female and also to choose any form you want for your avatar's appearance in Second Life (or simply called "SL" by those in the know with "RL" meaning "Real Life" as the regular real world.)  So, if you want, you can be a guy playing a girl.  And I do want that, sort of.  I don't want to be a full-on girl.  I want to be something in between.  A highly feminized man.  Be that a shemale or a sissy or something similar.

So, not only can you choose that but you can also then go into elaborate detail in how you want that form to appear.  You can have several forms and switch between them like changing clothes.  Since I've been on SL my male form was "transformed" into a "pretty pink sissy" at the Velvet Crossing Femme Domme place.  I ran around in that form for a lovely while.  Then I met a much another person on SL who'd taken a different approach.  Instead of having his male form be transformed into a petite little sissy, he took a female form and "butched it up" to have some pretty male features in terms of size and body muscularity.  He wound up looking like a very graceful shemale.  I found him so sexy I did the same to my pretty pink sissy.

I loved that look!  It got me lots of attention to!  Sexual attention.  Yes, you can have "sex" in SL.  The users there have developed a huge number of little computer programs that "animate" your avatar in sexual positions.  It's the visual element which really sets this whole place apart from your run of the mill chat room cyber sex stuff.

Yes, you do use chat as the primary form of communication back and forth.  SL has come up with have live voice feed for those who have microphones and such.  But, since I'm playing a feminized male, my RL voice simply isn't up for that.  So, I stick to chat.  Lotsa typing there!

Anyway, I ran around in that shemale form and had a blast.  I was fucking my lights out!  And all en femme!

I decided to amp things up a up and went out and found a "Amazon" body shape (the underlying structure and size of your avatar's appearance) and a "Muscular" skin (the color and shading that goes over your shape) to make a Amazon Shemale form.  This, to me, was my deepest fantasy come to life!  I didn't go hog wild with my cock on SL.  Some do and have absolutely impossible cocks.  Think Futanari on steriods here.  But, it's all possible on SL so some feel no restraint.  And there is something appealing about the idea of meeting some Furry of "horse cock dick girl" and throating that monster. 

Anyway, I found that my Amazon tended to scare off the other gurls.  At least the ones who I wanted to fuck me.  And I was still to femme for the gay boys to come anywhere near.  Their loss.

In my travels in SL I found one place that has a "Sissy Dollification Machine" set up.  It's made to function under the "Restrained Life" programs that allow you to yield control over your avatar's movements and such.  It's a really effective way of simulating being "forced" in the virtual realm.  Well, I switched back to my male avatar form and ran myself through that machine.  What emerged, with some further work on my part, was a "Sissy Doll."  My shape and skin had been reset to be "doll like" in proportion and in markings.  I now had "hinge lines" at my hips, knees, shoulders, neck and torso.  Just like a doll would.  My breasts were nice mounds but were otherwise featureless.  Perversely, the sissy doll had a huge cock that jutted out ramrod hard and straight.  The Machine also provided me a Sissy Doll outfit of pretty pink polka dots and a petticoated skirt that hid nothing of me.  It also provided some very overstuffed boobs to go on top of my doll's tits.  In short, I was made for fucking.  And fuck I did!  I found a lot of men - and no few other shemales - who loved bending me over and using me well!

I eventually found another "Sissification" machine that transformed my form into yet another sissy shape and skin.  This one was at least "real" and not a dolly.  That to was fun and that to got me lots and lots of attention.  I was burning myself out on SL and loving it!

It was in this form that I finally found a Mistress in SL who struck enough chords within me that she managed to capture my attention.  And this was rather surprising for me given what sort of play she's into. 

In all the TG fiction - both what I like to read and what I've written - I have never been attracted to the idea of full emasculation.  Anything that involved castration or SRS (Sexual Reassingment Surgery) has never been of interest to me.  I much prefer situations where the male is feminized to a very high degree.  Drugs, hormones, breast augmentation surgery, cosmetic surgery to change his face and features to be more female, mind control hypnosis, and so on.  But never to the point of him losing his "boy bits."  Yet, that is the role play which Mistress V. and I are getting into.  No, I won't lose all of my boy bits - just the balls.  In there place I will have a "functional" vagina made with the remnants of those balls.

Already in our RP (Role Play) I've been doused with so many drugs and so much hormones that I'm effectively neutered.  My cock has shrunken down to a shadow of its former self and now hangs there limply.  My balls are reduced to a little "sissy purse" and are non-functional.  All I can do is ooze precum.  No sperm.

I'm actually finding this to be exceptionally liberating.  So long as I had a cock in SL that could get hard, I was getting hit up by those who wanted me to fuck them.  Even some of the big butch guys wanted my pretty pink sissy to get a stiffy and bend them over!  Now that I've but a soft "sissy clit" that's not gonna happen.  This has freed me to be as submissive and passive as I've yearned to be.  And I've yearned quite a bit!

This has all been a huge adventure for me.  It's tremendously stimulating for my sexual fantasies and I'm feeling a great release through this virtual world.  Yes, it is a virtual world and that's no substitute for the real world.  But, for a guy who's got such strong feminization fantasies and who real life form is nowhere close to those fantasies, SL provides an awesome opportunity for play.  And that's what I'm using it for.

I'll be using this blog now as a window into SL and my experiences there.  I'll be posting pictures - snapshots - of what I'm doing there.  Nothing major but just to illustrate what I mean.  So, look for more of this!

Oh, and if reading all this has inspired you to come on to Second Life then please look me up.  My name over there is Fran Restless and I'd love to hear from you!

Fran