I don’t like her

I don’t like her. I don’t even know her name and I don’t like her. I don’t like her because she doesn’t like this and that means they make her do it. And each time they make her do it means less time for the rest of us to do it and, in particular, less time for me to do it.

Big Dicks!

On Second Life all things are possible.  On Second Life you can become your lust.  Thus, if you happen to lust after six foot long cocks, then you can have one!  And, no few people on SL do have super huge penises.  As the average height for a male avatar on SL is about seven feet, even a cock which looks “normal” for that size body is, in actuality, beyond John Holmes in massiveness.

I can understand this to some great degree.  As all things are possible on SL, and as you are free to transform yourself at your whim, and as there’s no physical impossibilities here, then why not have six foot long penis?  Why not be a human with a four foot long horse’s dick?  Why not be a sixty foot tall dragon with a ten foot long dragon’s shaft – replete with barbs and multiple flanges?  Why not indeed.

When you open your account on SL your avatar is effectively sexless.  That is, strip off the clothes and you’ve no more underneath than a Ken or Barbie doll.  Not only do the female avatars lack even the most basic of “pink bits” but the males also lack anything even resembling a penis or balls.  Thus, to have any sort of package – be  it “normal” or dragon-sized – you have to go shopping for an “after-market” addition.  An “add-on package” to get your package.  A goodly number of these are free.  And many of those show it.  There are also a number of cocks which you can buy that are pretty damn pretty and pretty chock-full of options.

Not the least of these option is size.  And given both the male propensity (and dire need) to have “the biggest dick on the block” it’s only natural that a lot of guys are soon running around sporting absolutely huge dicks.  And no few of these guys wind up sporting absolutely impossibly huge cocks as well.  I’ve run around some of the gay sims and that seen guys walking about with penises jutting out ramrod straight from their bodies – no surprise there – but these penises are some five or six feet long!  That, and about a foot in diameter.  There’d be no physical way that the human frame could support such a member.  Let alone support it hard and let alone support it cantilevered out from the body like that.  Even getting the thing engorged with blood – not to mention stiff with it – would take so much blood that the rest of the body would be starved of oxygen and pass out.  And if you said that the guy had a sufficiently greater amount of blood in his system to allow for his absurdly humungous cock to get stiff, then when it was soft there’d be so much extra blood coursing through is veins that he’d burst every organ and quickly die of hypertension!

But hey, why not?  There’s no real downside to this in SL.  At least not any physical one.  Due to the nature of how SL renders its graphics and the way its avatar forms are constructed, there is never any question that one avatar will ever have the problem of accommodating the outsize cock of another.  Even if your dick is bigger around than the other avatar’s body or is longer than their body, you’ll still be able to slip it in without issue.

Graphically though, this does present some problems.  I’ve encountered no few situations where my avatar has been on her knees giving another guy head and his dick is so damn long that it runs through my face and then back out the rear of my skull entirely.  Sometimes the end of the guy’s dick is out there hanging in the breeze by a good foot or more!  And this happens while fucking to!  It is not at all rare for the angle of the positions and the motions of the fuck to cause the other guy’s dick to “surface” through the rest of my body.  Most amusingly, this is when their dick is so long that it come out at the top of my chest of the middle of my back while buried in my butt.  In RL, such a penetration would be exceptionally lethal.  Not to mention extremely painful for the fucker-er as their pushing their shaft in like that would break my hip bones into very sharp shards that’d shred their stiff dick in no time at all.

But hey, why not?

And I do have to admit some attraction here as well.  While I don’t particularly find abnormally sized “human” cocks to be all that attractive as they’re clearly “impossible” and they also project through the body and thus ruin the visuals, I also have to admit having a liking for the horse cocks / exotic cocks I’ve seen bobbing around SL.  There is something wonderfully decadent and perverse about the idea of throating one of those things that always interests me.  The smarter players will usually “turn off” their dicks when getting in to it so that they don’t ruin those visuals by having the dicks stick out through the body.  Some of these dicks – both “normal” and exotic – also offer “invisibility” options which render the end third or so of the huge shaft as “transparent” thus they don’t “stick out” at all.  I like that.

Then there’s cumming.  Here to, anything is possible.  Most cocks for sale or for free on SL treat their cum as being of the firehose variety and also of being hooked up to an inexhaustible reservoir.  Thus they’ll shoot gallons and gallons on jizz – and keep on shooting it until the user finally clicks “stop.”  Talk about stroking the ego!  Here to, the mechanics are kind of odd.  The cum is rendered as its own object and effect.  The designers of the cocks will, most naturally, have the cum shooting out the end of the cock and arcing downward in a nice natural curve.  There are some difficulties when the position of the dick’s head is not tied close enough to that of the cum stream.  This however, pales in comparison to the problem of the cum shooting out through the body of the other person.  Due to the way SL is set up, the graphics are rendered in such a way that the cum stream is treated the same way in which the cock is and while the cock is free to “surface” through the other person’s head or torso, so to is that stream of cum.  So, when you climax and shoot your wad, that cum stream will fly out through the other person’s body as if it weren’t there.  But hey, why not?  That’s always been one joke about being fucked so hard you can taste in your mouth! 

At least one cock designer however, took steps to remedy this by having a cum option set to shoot a spray of cum out the base of the shaft.  Figuring that this would be more realistic a depiction of your cumming while buried balls deep and thus the joy juice had nowhere else to go but squirt out the base.  If any of this is to bothersome however, we can all rely on the old stand by of just declaring the orgasm and cumming to have occurred in the sex-chat and dispense with the “through the body and out the top of the head” visual effects.  To each their own.

Getting back to those abnormally outsized “normal” cocks on men, there’s also the case of self-perception.  Some guys are quick to sport those outsized dicks for no other reason than that they can sport them.  Some guys feel compelled to sport such huge pieces of meat in order to remain competitive with the other guys around them.  Sort of an “arms race” of dicks.  But some guys, like my Sir – Master J, sport their outsize dick because it fits their self perception on SL.  Master J stands at over eight feet tall.  His form is closer to the Hulk’s than anything.  On SL he’s not just a big guy he’s a frickin’ huge guy!  And thus, to remain proportional, he needs his cock to reflect that.  I’ve happily accepted this and have had no problem throating that monster and even less problem taking it in me otherwise.  This, not to mention taking his bull cock when he’s in Minotaur form!

So, as far as big dicks on Second Life go – hey, why not!

Fran

Transformations

For me, and for quite a few others I have encountered on “the grid,” Second Life is all about transformations. This is inherent in the foundation of SL. Your very first form on SL is a transformation for it is not the actual you but an avatar of you – a transformation of you for the virtual realm.


The structure of SL makes it inherently easy you to transform yourself. This, from the relatively minor things; hair color, eye color, height, foot size, etc., to the more major things such as your gender or even you species. There really is no reason to ever be unhappy with your form on SL since you can so easily and quickly transform it. If you want to be taller it is but a couple of mouse clicks to reach that screen in the Edit – Appearance menu. Same same with changing your foot size or length of your nose or even changing your gender.


The other changes can be more involved but here to they are pretty quick and direct things to accomplish. I recently went from a human form into that of something else – a “Blood Tigress” form. This entailed something as complex as purchasing the new shape and skin from a vendor and “wearing” them. The end result was “human looking” black female tiger with red striping. My legs took on the “dog leg” bend and my feet became paws. I also picked up a set of tiger cat ears and tail along with a distinctly feline looking – but still human-ish face. This is the form that I transformed myself into for the furry play that my Sir wants to explore with me.


My Sir, Master J, has gone further in his transformation in this play. His form for this is that of a fearsome Minotaur – all huge, muscular, dark and animalistic. I revel in his transformation and we’ve enjoyed some rather fine play sessions with me in my other human form as well as in my new Blood Tigress form. I am looking forward to exploring more of the Furry world with him and what it has to offer.


My other transformations were not so species hoping as the Blood Tigress was. They were all into feminized forms and this was the key appeal of SL for me. In Real Life (RL) it would essentially be impossible to attain the level of transformation that I did with my form. Or at least it would require may months – if not years – and hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of lengthy, painful, and slow to recover from surgeries. For me in SL, it was but a few mouse-clicks away.


Initially, it was simply adopting a new form and skin. These being more petite and female than my male form that I opened my account with. In short order I began transforming myself even further. Here to, I started simply. I changed my height, I changed my muscularity, I changed my hair, I changed my clothing. All this transformed me from a pretty, petite pink sissy into a more aggressive and sexy (for my tastes) shemale.


As I enjoyed that shape, I kept on transforming. I found a “machine” which would produce a different sort of transformation and I ran myself through it emerging with another form. Later, I ran myself through still yet another machine and was transformed again. Seeking to capitalize on the joy I found in that more masculine shemale form, I went out and purchased yet another shape and skin, this one being an “Amazon” shape and a “Muscular” skin to give detail to my envisioned hyper-muscular shemale. All of this was exceptionally easy and flowed from my desires to explore and try new things.


My current form, that of the submissive sissy, is yet another transformation. Quite different from the muscular or Amazon form, this one has been transformed several times now and will continue to be so in the future. Most recently, I took this form and transformed it for the specific pleasure of my Sir. I reshaped my body and form to specifically entail everything that he finds supremely attractive in a female.


My skin became paler, my eyes became green, my hair became red, and my chest – already large with my implants – became larger still. I found no small amount of joy in the submission and willingness to alter and transform my form in order to please him more. It is an inherent part of why I am finding SL to be so attractive and powerful to me.


Along the way I’ve now met others who also enjoy the transformation abilities that SL offers. Some now identify as shapeshifters. One woman I’ve met has over forty different forms that she can transform herself into readily. I find that awesome. I like that sort of creativity. I like that sort of security in a person’s inner self that they can be so free to explore with something so basic as the outward form of who and what they are.


At the same time I also deeply respect the choice of others to retain one form and limit or refrain from any transformation. One femme boi I know, Shawna, has remained just that – a femme boi – for as long as I’ve known her on SL. She has some more experience with SL than I and she has found a form which well suits her needs – that of a highly feminized young man – without having any need or interest in going further. Unlike myself who has changed my form almost weekly, Shawna is quite happy to not so continually transform. That to is an inherent freedom on SL.


I fully expect to eventually settle down into a generally preferred form. At some point. In the future. But not yet. The Role Play (RP) that I am now in entails more transformations of my current form so we’ll see where that leads. I know there will be days when I feel an itch to transform into one of my previous feminized forms – a form where I have not been gelded and do not have a vagina in place of my scrotum. I also know that Master J will call upon his “sex kitten” to go out into the Furry realms and explore there. So, we shall see where and what I transform into over time.


In the meantime, I am enjoying every transformation that I create and change myself into.


Fran

Second Life

Wow!

I just recently discovered Second Life and it has breathed new life into my feminization fantasies!  It is an awesome place to go play in.  It's a "MMOW" - Massively Multiplayer Online World.  It's not a game like Everquest with a set script and objective.  Instead, you create your account - your avatar - and then you log into the simulation.

Once there you interact freely with the other folks online.  You have a choice when creating yourself to be male or female and also to choose any form you want for your avatar's appearance in Second Life (or simply called "SL" by those in the know with "RL" meaning "Real Life" as the regular real world.)  So, if you want, you can be a guy playing a girl.  And I do want that, sort of.  I don't want to be a full-on girl.  I want to be something in between.  A highly feminized man.  Be that a shemale or a sissy or something similar.

So, not only can you choose that but you can also then go into elaborate detail in how you want that form to appear.  You can have several forms and switch between them like changing clothes.  Since I've been on SL my male form was "transformed" into a "pretty pink sissy" at the Velvet Crossing Femme Domme place.  I ran around in that form for a lovely while.  Then I met a much another person on SL who'd taken a different approach.  Instead of having his male form be transformed into a petite little sissy, he took a female form and "butched it up" to have some pretty male features in terms of size and body muscularity.  He wound up looking like a very graceful shemale.  I found him so sexy I did the same to my pretty pink sissy.

I loved that look!  It got me lots of attention to!  Sexual attention.  Yes, you can have "sex" in SL.  The users there have developed a huge number of little computer programs that "animate" your avatar in sexual positions.  It's the visual element which really sets this whole place apart from your run of the mill chat room cyber sex stuff.

Yes, you do use chat as the primary form of communication back and forth.  SL has come up with have live voice feed for those who have microphones and such.  But, since I'm playing a feminized male, my RL voice simply isn't up for that.  So, I stick to chat.  Lotsa typing there!

Anyway, I ran around in that shemale form and had a blast.  I was fucking my lights out!  And all en femme!

I decided to amp things up a up and went out and found a "Amazon" body shape (the underlying structure and size of your avatar's appearance) and a "Muscular" skin (the color and shading that goes over your shape) to make a Amazon Shemale form.  This, to me, was my deepest fantasy come to life!  I didn't go hog wild with my cock on SL.  Some do and have absolutely impossible cocks.  Think Futanari on steriods here.  But, it's all possible on SL so some feel no restraint.  And there is something appealing about the idea of meeting some Furry of "horse cock dick girl" and throating that monster. 

Anyway, I found that my Amazon tended to scare off the other gurls.  At least the ones who I wanted to fuck me.  And I was still to femme for the gay boys to come anywhere near.  Their loss.

In my travels in SL I found one place that has a "Sissy Dollification Machine" set up.  It's made to function under the "Restrained Life" programs that allow you to yield control over your avatar's movements and such.  It's a really effective way of simulating being "forced" in the virtual realm.  Well, I switched back to my male avatar form and ran myself through that machine.  What emerged, with some further work on my part, was a "Sissy Doll."  My shape and skin had been reset to be "doll like" in proportion and in markings.  I now had "hinge lines" at my hips, knees, shoulders, neck and torso.  Just like a doll would.  My breasts were nice mounds but were otherwise featureless.  Perversely, the sissy doll had a huge cock that jutted out ramrod hard and straight.  The Machine also provided me a Sissy Doll outfit of pretty pink polka dots and a petticoated skirt that hid nothing of me.  It also provided some very overstuffed boobs to go on top of my doll's tits.  In short, I was made for fucking.  And fuck I did!  I found a lot of men - and no few other shemales - who loved bending me over and using me well!

I eventually found another "Sissification" machine that transformed my form into yet another sissy shape and skin.  This one was at least "real" and not a dolly.  That to was fun and that to got me lots and lots of attention.  I was burning myself out on SL and loving it!

It was in this form that I finally found a Mistress in SL who struck enough chords within me that she managed to capture my attention.  And this was rather surprising for me given what sort of play she's into. 

In all the TG fiction - both what I like to read and what I've written - I have never been attracted to the idea of full emasculation.  Anything that involved castration or SRS (Sexual Reassingment Surgery) has never been of interest to me.  I much prefer situations where the male is feminized to a very high degree.  Drugs, hormones, breast augmentation surgery, cosmetic surgery to change his face and features to be more female, mind control hypnosis, and so on.  But never to the point of him losing his "boy bits."  Yet, that is the role play which Mistress V. and I are getting into.  No, I won't lose all of my boy bits - just the balls.  In there place I will have a "functional" vagina made with the remnants of those balls.

Already in our RP (Role Play) I've been doused with so many drugs and so much hormones that I'm effectively neutered.  My cock has shrunken down to a shadow of its former self and now hangs there limply.  My balls are reduced to a little "sissy purse" and are non-functional.  All I can do is ooze precum.  No sperm.

I'm actually finding this to be exceptionally liberating.  So long as I had a cock in SL that could get hard, I was getting hit up by those who wanted me to fuck them.  Even some of the big butch guys wanted my pretty pink sissy to get a stiffy and bend them over!  Now that I've but a soft "sissy clit" that's not gonna happen.  This has freed me to be as submissive and passive as I've yearned to be.  And I've yearned quite a bit!

This has all been a huge adventure for me.  It's tremendously stimulating for my sexual fantasies and I'm feeling a great release through this virtual world.  Yes, it is a virtual world and that's no substitute for the real world.  But, for a guy who's got such strong feminization fantasies and who real life form is nowhere close to those fantasies, SL provides an awesome opportunity for play.  And that's what I'm using it for.

I'll be using this blog now as a window into SL and my experiences there.  I'll be posting pictures - snapshots - of what I'm doing there.  Nothing major but just to illustrate what I mean.  So, look for more of this!

Oh, and if reading all this has inspired you to come on to Second Life then please look me up.  My name over there is Fran Restless and I'd love to hear from you!

Fran

Titty Fucking

Titties loves her huge sissy bimbo sized breasts. She loves them because her Mistress has told her much men love sissy bimbos with huge titties. And why do men love them? Simple! Men love to fuck the titties of sissies with huge bimbo breasts! So, guess what happens to this sissy with her huge titties!

Breathe

When is an obviously broken and sissified man not actually broken? And what would such a man do to survive?

That Look In Her Eyes

A fun and sexy tale of a man becoming the sissy boy toy for his Lady. A Lady who he loves and trusts to transform him into her submissive sexy little sissy. To get there he submits to his Lady and she uses drugs, hormones, some minor surgical additions, the overwhelming power of her love and of her dominance to create the sissy boy toy they both want him to be.